Is everything the same

Monday, September 04, 2006

Life's Ups and Downs

for friday... i had school... omg... on teacher's day got school... after school, i went home to wash up my after-school-tired face, bathed, and relaxed in front of my computer... just waiting for time to fly till i go and meet marlon and jon for bs... cheryl they all went orchard lah... without us... nvm... who cares?... the group is just becoming too complacent all this while... cause i was late we took cab... i went straight to the studio to start my serving

bible study... pastor lian preaching... i had a fun time in the studio manz... i was just jack, me, and i in the studio... hmmm... after that gotta shut down the studio place lah... cause they're gonna have some kind of major power shut down... hmmm... went to catch up with the group late... thanks josh, marlon, jon and darryl for waiting for me... i felt kinda condemned lah... he spoiled my day with some stupid words he shouldn't have said... it's quite hard for me to smile nowadays you know... can't you even let me enjoy that few minutes of smiling... asshole

saturday got dare service... i couldn't contact marlon and jon... haha... thank god still got isabella to meet up with... we took train to city hall, meet zenda and sheryl there, then we go suntec KFC have lunch... haha... first time we requeted for receipt at the KFC outlet... of course must request lah... can claim back $2 from the church leh... haha... new creation church loves us dare servers so much... thank you!... haha

dare sound was fun... i finally got another opprtunity to smile, be happy for an moment or two... thank god!... :(... it was fun... i finished sound check earlier than i expected... usually coach alice would be beside me, "eh jack, hao le mah", then i usually gotta beg for another 5 more minutes or so... haha... lapel got no feedback... haha... at least, not noticeable lah... shhh... so sad... pastor dan did not use the lapel mic... usually when he want to use then got some kind of funny noise... oh well... pray for effort gets appreciated... finally i got the key to EQ the lapel mic for dare service... eugene and ben got an opprtunity to mix for dare praise & worship... very excellent, for first-timers... i just imagined myself being young again when i just joined dare sound ministry, when coach issac let me mix for the first time... haha... keep it up yea

after that, eugene tagged along for dinner at millenia... haha... he was so quiet... probably he wasn't use to my clique... haha... the guys damn pang seh lah... i bought my food already then they 'chow' to LAN... wtf... i felt so silent... marlon wasn't around to accompany me... after dinner, i hanged around for a while... till i realized isabella, cheryl they all have left already... fuck sia... i gotta catch up with them again... this is damn not the first time lah... sorry eugene, u gotta run along with me

on the train damn quiet lah... probably the only conversation i had was with cheryl, when we got shock to see i've finally caught up... she just said, "eh? jack so fast ah?"... speechless on the train... no one saw the cringe behind my smile... fuck you all... i used to be optimetist about life's appearance... now it has been slashed into pieces... let me take back my life... and thanks for keeping me quiet... at least every moment i'm quiet, i get to enjoy the cringe that only i saw within me

spoken adhesives at 17:16

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Life's Reflection

in life we always try to run so fast and run so strong
but when it gets cold and it feels like the end
i just wanna forget about everything and runaway
against my will i stand aside my own reflection