Is everything the same

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

hold me closer please

this weekend and an additional 2 weekday-days is chinese new year... needless to say... as a chinese, we would have occasions such as visiting relatives and having reunion dinner... of course not forgetting the red packets lah... grace grace

friday was spent at indoor stadium... gotta sound setup for chinese new year service... aircon was not on... but it was one day in church which i had perspired so much while serving... i guess it was the running up and down bah... setup was good

saturday was spent at my father's side family... where we had our reunion dinner... gosh i was high manz... me and my cousins were laughing out loud our time away... we were recalling our past events where i used to cant wait to go over to their place... where we would play computer games like "Little Fighter 2"... and back then the computer very very the slow lah... but the slower the computer is... the more "combos" we try to do... so the more "combos" we try to do, the even more lag the computer gets... and after some time when we tried to relax then all the "combos" will come out all at once... rofl... the graphics will get kinda spastic... then either one side will win the game, somehow... those were the days that kept our kinship alive... and not to miss out, i also cranked up quite a number of lame jokes lah

sunday... went to my father's side the family again... but left quickly after lunch at around 1215... gotta reach indoor stadium at 1300... but service sucked... i hated it... i hated the insecurity i felt... i hated the feeling that crippled me as though it poked a needle in my knee... those silent treatment were like noises so loud they probably passed the SPL level limit... oh gosh... anywayz after service i met up with marlon and the rest and went to cressebella's house... apparently her mom had bought a lot of pratas lah... so we go her house eat... whoa... the curry was shiok sia... lol... stayed at her place until around 2300

anywayz monday, tuesday and wednesday was not good... cause i constantly had memories like visual graphics reminding me of all those things that happened on sunday... i felt so dragged down and burdened... it's like i cant help but just think about them... what exactly have i done wrong? was there like a defect in the manufacturing of me or something?... cause this needle is like filling me up with poison spreading to my chest... it makes me breathless, senseless

spoken adhesives at 18:36

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Life's Reflection

in life we always try to run so fast and run so strong
but when it gets cold and it feels like the end
i just wanna forget about everything and runaway
against my will i stand aside my own reflection